getting used to

Months.

It has been months since I last saw you.
To tell you the truth, I think I have grown used to your absence in my life.
Of course there are times that thoughts of you enter my mind but only because someone or something reminded me of you.

You are no longer a regular mainstay in my head.
You are no longer the focus of my attention.
You are no longer...

Okay. I'm talking shit.
Of course no matter what happens you already have a special place in my heart. And you have managed to have that spot without me even knowing it.
And now, with your absence, I am trying to fill that empty space with make-believe thoughts of me not needing you.

I miss you.
Hope to see you. Soon.